I often find myself writing about the mess that we find so often in life--walking and leading through shades of grey, closed doors, new opportunities, and stepping out in faith. And, quite honestly, I have been learning that this "mess" was designed to help us grow and reach our full potential so that we can truly thrive. Think back to a time when you felt lost in the mess of life...how did you feel while you were in the dark?--how did you feel when you came out? This mess brings us to a point in our lives where we aren't where we were, but not yet where we want to be. In this land of between we must choose to trust God so that He can grow us up into who He has designed us to be!
Living in these moments sure isn't easy though. It is easy to write about...to sing about...to dream and think about; but when we get right down to it, why is it that we struggle just living in the mess? Why do we feel like we need to take back the reins of life and figure everything out? I believe it all boils down to two things: 1) we aren't trusting God, and 2) we haven't truly experienced the magnitude of His love.
The love of Jesus Christ is not from some Hollywood chick flick. The love of Christ is never-ending. His love is all-consuming and powerful. His love celebrates weakness because in our weakness we have the opportunity to bring glory to His Name. His love never leaves--even when we are angry, hurt, and confused. His love doesn't give up on us. His love is so great that He sent His only Son to die to save us (John 3:16). His love fills us, completes us, redeems us. His love guides us. His love is indescribable.
If we truly take the time to sit in the magnitude of His tremendous love for us and just try to think about how much He loves us, I can guarantee you that you won't be able to walk away unchanged. And that's what this blog is all about...being still in the presence of God to listen to His voice in the midst of this thing called life.
I'm just a broken-down Jesus girl on this dusty trail called life. Writing is one of my passions along with photography, hanging out with my little sisters, trying new coffee drinks at Starbucks, running, spending lots of time at the beach, and reading new books. One of the things I have learned over the past several years is that love is a lot like water and chaos. In her book, Paperdoll, Natalie Lloyd says:
I want love that is infinite, not flimsy. I want to experience the kind of love that boggles my mind with its depth and dimension. I want a love I can hold up to my heart like a kaleidoscope. Change the way I see things. Change the way I live. Teach me how to love. Take this beautiful mess and make it a masterpiece. Love won't shatter my heart with conditions. It accepts, uplifts, and redefines. I want a love that gives me peace; a love that wraps around my shoulders like a blanket, pulling me close, whispering, "welcome home." I want a love like chaos, stirring my imagination, igniting me with passion, showing up in places I never expected. I want a love I can swim in. I want to dive deeper and deeper and move faster against the current until I feel as if my lungs are going to explode. And then, when I break the surgace, I want love to be my first furious breath of air--intoxicating, invigorating, alive.
This is the journey I'm on...a journey of embracing this love like water and chaos. I want His love to change me...radically; because I know that when I allow His love to completely change me, I will begin to see the messes of life as my biggest blessings. Will you join me?